Today, my good blogging buddy, Don of all Trades, wrote a post of things that he has done but would never do again. I listed some majors (some highly illegal) but it really got me to thinking. Because the truth is…aside from some academic accomplishments, I wouldn’t do 99% of the things that I partook of from ages 16-26 now that I have officially “grown up”.
For the entire decade, I lived a life of excess, self-gratification, and being just plain ol’ wild. Wild, I tell you, wild. For those that have followed me for a little while know that, while we all have a shelf life in this world, my imminent expiration date was shown to me at the tender age of 16. As a teenager, armed with that knowledge, I lived a very “no regrets” kind of life. I could be heard saying the words, “Why not?”, on nearly every occasion.
Because, truly, why not?
I have lived two extraordinarily different lives and I can’t say that I regret either one of them because they both are who I am. I was single and crazy and excessive before I became a low-key soccer mom. While being a mom is infinitely more personally gratifying and emotionally satisfying…I have never and will never regret my past. How could you ever look back on such an exciting and wild ride with anything resembling an apology?
I am me. I have always been and will always be exactly who I am. Who that person is, is something that ebbs and flows, and I am proud to say that I change and evolve as person on a yearly basis. I can’t imagine now being who I was then anymore than I would have ever foreseen who I have become. Today, I am proud of who I am as a person, as a wife, and as a mother. I think my experiences have molded me into who I have grown to be and I can genuinely say that I like that person. I just like myself for different reasons than I did way back then.
I am grateful for every guy that dumped me because it lead me into the arms of my husband- whom I adore with all of my heart. I’m grateful for everything that went wrong in my life my last year in Florida because it sent me fleeing solstice in my home state of Texas- where I found my new life. I’m eternally grateful for every seemingly bad decision that brought me to such a wonderful end.
Life is short but memories are forever. And while I am happy to have every single one of mine…I would never -ever- do any of it over again.
I'm just living minute to minute, hour to hour, day to day.